Who am I? I'm not so sure. Where can I find the real me now? It feels as though there is no sanctuary and no solace ahead of me. Perhaps what I need is just to be alone. At the same time I do not wish to be alone. I need a new world, a different world.

I keep telling myself that I mustn't do this, that I cannot do that, that I shouldn't feel this. I guess I'm losing track of what is right and what is wrong to feel.

-sigh- Back to watching TV, reading books and looking at others for my dose of bitter sweetness.