I remind myself to be confident, to be happy, to know that there is a purpose to everything that I do. That's what keeps me going. But when my goals dissolve out of sight and I am clouded from my aspirations then everything becomes impossible.

I paint myself a perfect picture of everything that's going on and everything that I hope to go on in the future. Yet it becomes shattered oh so easily.

-sigh- Despairing is stupid. Yet trying to address the problems just exacerbate and worsen the feelings of despair.

What purpose is there to anything I do? I'm hopeless.