It is but a river of tears

The redness of the eyes

The icy grip on the heart

It is but a gasp of breath

The tormenting thoughts

The fear, the pain, the insecurity

It is but conflict

The clash between two souls

The laceration of the relationship

The crushing of the heart

Examiners don't dig poems during the english exam. But anyway, today was ok as far as days go. Ups and downs. This morning when I woke up I couldn't open my eyes and I spent 2 hrs squinting at everything in the house. Luckily that went away as the day proceeded.

French SAC was ok. Worked way too slowly for my liking. I think my french has deteriorated lately. How disappointing. Then we had assembly (more lecturing on behalf of the coordinators), english (boredom galore), lunch (pleasantly entertaining) and chem (a useLESS lesson).

So let's talk about the nice parts of my day.
Lunch was fun coz I find a warm consolation in the brightness of my buddies and their cute care towards one another. Bleh I busted too much money again. But it was fun.

Afterschool I spent some quality time with the beloved. Twas good.

Then I went to uni. Interesting stuff to learn about the revolution. In other words, read the same description in more sophisticated and convoluted language of a different historian to the previous. Most people zoned out. Permanently. I came in and out of consciousness. Not bad.

Met up with Lolo after uni. Bought her sushi. Bought 2 packs for some reason. We didn't need 8 sushi rolls. Met up with Liv. Turns out she'd bought 4 sushi rolls too. Definitely didn't need 12 sushi rolls. xP Hers was Kenzan though. <3

Ate too much again.
I'm starting to be a girl 'who eats her feelings'.
They'll need a crane to get me out of the house.

Why the flat tone?
Fear of hoping.
What if?