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I've got to stop crying damnit. Yet here I am thinking foolishly about those times where you used to say to me "Someone asked me to go to Eureka but I said no because it's something that I wanted to do with you" or "Someone asked me to go to dinner but I haven't done that with you before so I'm not going". Ha. It was so sweet. Yet now I've sort of become accustomed to it. And it hurts to be stuck at home, lonely, while you have so much fun with all your other friends. It just keeps reminding me of how caged I am. And it hurts so bad.

And the more I hurt, the further you are pushed away from me. I can't keep dwelling on this stupid hope that things will be different in the future. What proof is there that things will be different in the future? I feel so isolated from you. Now I'm not even worth the trouble for you to see me. I guess I'm just not good enough.

Why must you leave me stranded in tears?
Do you even care about me anymore?