Savvy?

Let us avoid using blasphemies to commence our blogs, shall we?

Ok. So why am I using blogger to blog after abandoning it for over a year? Well, the answer is so that less people will see my blog. Coz honestly, how many people actually KNOW about my blogspot, much less check it?

Hahaha. Damn. I suck, don't I?

Mannn.. I always seem to say the wrong things at the wrong time. First I accidentally fuelled conflict between mum and dad and made dad furious for the first time in ages O.o I guess everyone reacts differently to different situations, and he's stressed out because the bushfires are getting closer. Mum doesn't understand that concept. Yet we all understand the concept that mum gets totally over-stressed over the largest assortment of things ever. She doesn't understand, at all.

Made a stupid joke about someone's blog about the bushfires. That didn't please Lo very much. Stupid, much?

Now, why is my blog named 'Savvy?' Because I don't savvy. I don't understand. Hahaha. Awkward laughter fills in gaps and makes me feel better. Mum gets pissed when I laugh about things that 'aren't funny at all', for example, the learners driving manual from like the 70s/80s. Lol. I thought it was awesome stuff =/

I don't savvy. I don't understand how someone can claim to feel so strongly for someone, enough for everyone to believe so. Yet turn their back so easily. I don't understand. Why do we like to respond to dilemmas with self-destruction? Why does it feel better to do something that is wrong when we feel that we have been wronged?

I don't savvy. Have I succombed to something in which I should not have? Why is it that I still see others through prejudiced eyes? Why do I still feel that subtle nudge to judge? Everyone does things in their own way. Why am I so scared? I don't understand..

I don't savvy. What is right and what is wrong? What is heaven and what is hell? What is god and what is jesus? Are we condemned to 'hell' for not believing in the 'lord'? Are we condemned for being born into a different culture and focusing our spirituality on other icons?

Don't I just accept things the way they are? I'm just a little lost right now.

Savvy?